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When I thought I lost You

You knew where to find me

You’ve always known

Why do I always question Your ability to find me?

Regardless of how far I go or how deep I hide, You are always able to find me

There’s no place I can run to

There’s no ditch I can hide in

There’s no pit I can fall in

That can ever challenge Your ability to find me...

When I thought I lost You

You knew where to find me

You’ve always known

Why do I always question Your ability to find me?

Regardless of how far I go or how deep I hide, You are always able to find me

There’s no place I can run to

There’s no ditch I can hide in

There’s no pit I can fall in

That can ever challenge Your ability to find me...

What does it mean to be undone?

How do I begin to denounce the things I once knew?

The things I once held unto as Truth?

Even though they are poisonous lies that have corrupted my soul...

How do I begin to unlearn the things that have become the very foundation of my being? My very existence...

How do I begin to unearth the things I have kept hidden?

The things I have buried away for no eyes to see...

How do I begin to disengage and disconnect from these garments of rejection and neglect?

The garments that have kept me warm for these 23 years of my life...

Truth be told I don’t know if I’m quite ready to get uncomfortable yet...

I h...

Will you just stand?

He says:

‘I am asking you to stand.

Yes stand!

Even when the rain comes.

Even when the storm rages on.

Even when the lightning strikes.

Even when the wind tosses you to and fro.

Even when everything in you wants to crumble and fall.

I am asking you to stand.

Yes stand!’

I sit here writing this struggling to stand as the DLR throws me to and fro. All the while still trying to keep my balance. Trying to write as I hear the Lord’s audible voice and I realise that to stand requires us to fight against every force that tries to bring us down!

But in the midst of it all...

I hear:

‘There is grace.

Every feel like you’ve been running this race for too long?

So long that because you still haven’t reached your destination yet you’re ready to call the quits?

Ever feel like you’ve been praying for too long?

So long that because you still haven’t seen the results yet you want to give up?

Ever feel like you’ve had your light switched on for too long?

So long that because you still haven’t seen a difference yet you are ready to switch it off?

I sit here writing on my bed at past 10 in the morning when I’m meant to be at work- feeling exactly like this.

Asking myself what is the point...

I remind myself of the vision God birthed thr...

The acceptance, safety and security we are looking for - that Love we are desperately searching for can only be found in Him.

That is why He is saying come out of hiding and into Him.

He sees it all.

Our flaws,

Our insecurities,

Our weaknesses,

Our past,

And He sees our future.

He is saying we don’t need to cover them up because He loves us regardless and He wants us. Most importantly He loves us enough to not want us to remain as we are.

Everything we are looking for is found in Him.

It almost sounds too good to be true but God is true and He loves us so much that He sent His only Son to die for us.

He died for ALL our sins - the th...

What can you see?

God told Abraham to look up to the stars and to count them, for his descendants shall be as many as the stars! Abraham looked up to the stars and they ceased to be stars in his eyes and became his descendants because he believed what the Lord had told Him!

What can you see?

What is the Lord asking you to look at?

What have you decided to see?

The Word says without vision, men perish!

Most of us are running around like headless chickens, buring out all over the place because we lack vision! We cannot see- we have lacked the capability to fully see with clarity becasue we do not believe!

Without faith, Abraham wou...

Are you tired of crying?

Are you tired of weeping?

Are you tired...

What happened to the drive in you?

When did the fire in your eyes go out?
What happened to the fighter in you?

When did you give up and surrender defeat? 
 

Don’t let them deceive you!
There is a fighter in you!

Don’t let them kill the giant in you!
 

You've been through hell and back 
You almost didn't make it

But you did 
 

So don't let them have it 
Don't let them say we've got him/her!

Don't let the the fire in your eyes go out
Don't let your drive wear out

Don't give up and surrender defeat
 

You fell,
You cried,

You wept, 
You broke down

But You got up
 

So don't yo...

This season has been a hard one. There’s been so many low times but there have also been so many high times too!

It is so easy when in the midst of the storm to focus on the storm because that is the loudest thing you can hear.

The bills are piling up The fridge is looking scarce and empty The clothes have multiple holes and the shoes are even non-existent The fees haven’t been paid The loan repayment plans are simply not working The bailiffs are knocking on the door The bank is calling your phone endlessly The declines are real from Tfl to your local grocery store.

How can you even focus on anything else when the storms are...

The Word says obedience is better than sacrifice but sometimes the obedience is the sacrifice!

I sit hear writing about obedience but it’s taking me more than a week to finally obey God and write this post!

But why did it take me so long?
What hindered me from obeying?

To be honest it’s a bit long.
When I write it’s like a layer is being stripped off me and I’m left feeling vulnerable, naked and open to attack...

But recently this word has been persistently on my heart...
It’s like everywhere I go I hear it, I see it or someone is talking about it...

O B E D I E N C E

But why is it so important?
What makes it so sig...